WHAT A LIFE

Life is really unfair. Well, I think half of it is also my fault. 

In my previous posts I said that I had encountered an accident during the summer and in that accident I dislocated my left kneecap. After 3 months, I dislocated again my left kneecap and this time it had torn some of my muscles and ligament. And yes after 3 months of rehabilitation, I dislocated my left kneecap again. I think that life is really cruel to me...just when I'm on my way to recovery, here I am again feeling the same pain that I felt 7 months ago. It is painful but not as painful like the first time that I dislocated my kneecap. 

I had known from the beginning that this accident can occur again because my orthopedic doctor told me that my kneecap had moved a few centimeters away from its original place making it more prone to be dislocated again. I had taken care and watched every step I take but maybe what I did was not yet enough. I overstepped on the stairs because I thought that the distance from one step to the other step is the same, but I found out that they are not and I found it the hard way. I felt something snapped in my left knee and I immediately told my friends that I am in pain and they advised me to sit. When I had sat down, I tried to stretch my left leg and poof! My left kneecap moves farther to the left. Imagine your left leg and there is this big bulge at the left side of your knee. That is how my leg looked like. My friend who saw what happened was speechless and did not know what to do. Then I tried to bend my knee and with some push the kneecap went back to it's original position again. I was able to walk and I was still able to attend my last class. When afternoon came, I saw that my left knee became swollen and I immediately went home. My mom called me because I told her that I dislocated my kneecap AGAIN and I am in pain. She told me that I still have some of the medicine that I took when I dislocated my kneecap last time, so I immediately drank the medicine. The medicine was a pain reliever. I felt drowsy and I slept through the pain the whole afternoon. 

Sad to say, I am still in pain and I am afraid to go and see my doctor again. I am afraid that he might schedule me for surgery and I cannot afford to do that at this time especially when I still have my school. Having to do surgery may force me to have a leave of absence this semester and I do not want to do that because a semester delay in our curriculum is also equivalent to a year delay because subjects in the college of veterinary medicine is seasonal and it is either offered during the first semester or the second semester. I hope that my situation is not that serious and I hope that I do not have to go under surgery yet, but if the doctor says so....then I don't know what to do.