It's time to fight!

Everything just seems out of place. I don't know why and I don't know how things happened this way. I feel suddenly tired of everything. I feel that I just want to rest and relax and stop thinking of things. I want to have some time to reflect on things. I was never like this before and I never felt this depressed ever. Being depress really sucks and I am now having a hard time coping up with all the stress that my academic load is giving me. It sucks to be here in the position where I am right now. Sometimes I do want to give up, but then when I think about all the things that I had been through I feel that I can still overcome this hurdle in my life. I do believe that I can make it through alive but at the end of the day after everything has been done I still see myself stuck in the same position. I tried and I can honestly say that I exerted a great amount of effort to move from this situation towards the next, but here I am not progressing and not moving forward any further.

They say that every set back in life is just a challenge that we need to overcome. I do think that they are right. I think that there is a reason why I am experiencing it right now. I know that it will teach me something and it will make me realize things. There are things that are taught to you in a hard way and I think that this is the lesson that  life wants me to learn. I admit that I don't know a lot of things and I am still in the process of learning and acquiring knowledge in life. There are still more questions to be answered, more exams to take and more failures to make. Life is not about being perfect. Life is about making mistakes and learning from them. You may had loved someone and had been hurt after. You may had been stabbed in the back by your friend and got through with it or you just might had a really bad score in an exam and you managed to still laugh about it. Life is unpredictable and life gives you a lot of crap. This might be the reason why I feel tired. I can't handle my life properly and I think that I am not going with the flow of life but against it.

Now I just need to find the motivation for me to go through all of this. I need to motivate myself and find the drive to help me get out of this state. I need to hold on to the person who believes that I can overcome all of this and the person who opposes what others think about me. I need to hold on to the faith that was given to me and I need not to fail the person who believes in my abilities. You could be my motivation because you are the only one who believes in me. You could be the one to help me in what I am going through and I wish that as time goes by you will still be here still believing in me and never failing to encourage me through all the crap that life gives me. I hope and pray that when I wake up each day I will still find you there helping me to make it through the day and make me believe to believe in myself that I can do it and to defy those people who said that I can't do it. I will do my best because you believed in me and I will show those people that they are wrong about me. It is time to wake up from this slumber and time to fight.